"Your Insecurities Try to Conquer You"

      It's the night before my first day of summer orientation at Furman, and I am scared to death. I don't really know why. While I was walking around Greenville today with my dad, it just hit me. In two months, this will be my home! It's all happening so quickly!

       Right now, my fears are really bringing out my insecurities. I don't know anybody going to this orientation. I know it's only for two days, but I told Mom tonight, "I don't wanna sit alone! I don't wanna eat alone!" 

       You see, even though I'm a very social person and love being around people, I have a tendency to be a little socially awkward. I am an introvert, so sometimes that makes things harder for me. Last summer, I did great at getting over my shyness. I spent a week at Palmetto Girl's State and two weeks at Furman for their Summer Scholars program, and I made lots of friends at both. But this past year, I just stopped caring as much about trying to get out of my shell. It was my senior year, so I just kept saying, "Oh well, I'll make friends at college!" But here I am, getting ready for orientation, and I'm scared that I won't be able to really put myself out there. 

       However, I've started praying about all of these insecurities, and one song keeps coming to mind. God keeps reminding me of the lyrics to "Walk on the Water" by Britt Nicole. In this song, Britt reminds us that our faith in God is all that it takes to overcome our insecurities. So tonight, as I try to get some sleep (which will be nearly impossible...I'm sharing a hotel room with both of my parents who snore like there's no tomorrow!), I will remember to give my insecurities to God and to do my very best to put myself out there tomorrow. Because as Britt says, "What do [I] have to lose?"

Walk on the Water